How can i say? Mylife.
wasnt really as simple as people will thought.
but all of this worms already give me super power to change from a little girl to who I am now.
I was a girl that really cant mad to people, always saying nice things because I want people to like me. Keeping all of the decision by people, follow them.
untill I have to move and I have to take caring all of my things by myself. then it made my logic up. that I cant be depend by anyone here. I should made all decision by myself.
yes. the early of my universities thing was to adapting environment, from me who was always get controlled by "family" into me who knows what have to be good for me and not good for me. *even I know somehow I made mistake, and its causing me into a stubborn girl.
But why, living in the family so tiring, to always have all the rules, you should do this, not do this, and I just realise that I dont like rules...its complicated.
Well, The life, should be no lie.
If its, it will be a liefe, will need a lot of space,
space of guilty feeling because you lied?
some energy to think what should I talk to lie? ...
I`d experienced those lie, which sometimes lead me to suffer..
Sometimes I lie too. for people that I think its not necessary for them to knowing the truth,
and this lie wont ruin their world, because its only effect to my world. (Sometimes when its about my love story or family problem that will less people know) others would only know a lie.
Mm..
Kinda, want to make what my life have is normal.
LOL but its far away from normal, its... Unique.
wasnt really as simple as people will thought.
but all of this worms already give me super power to change from a little girl to who I am now.
I was a girl that really cant mad to people, always saying nice things because I want people to like me. Keeping all of the decision by people, follow them.
untill I have to move and I have to take caring all of my things by myself. then it made my logic up. that I cant be depend by anyone here. I should made all decision by myself.
yes. the early of my universities thing was to adapting environment, from me who was always get controlled by "family" into me who knows what have to be good for me and not good for me. *even I know somehow I made mistake, and its causing me into a stubborn girl.
But why, living in the family so tiring, to always have all the rules, you should do this, not do this, and I just realise that I dont like rules...its complicated.
Well, The life, should be no lie.
If its, it will be a liefe, will need a lot of space,
space of guilty feeling because you lied?
some energy to think what should I talk to lie? ...
I`d experienced those lie, which sometimes lead me to suffer..
Sometimes I lie too. for people that I think its not necessary for them to knowing the truth,
and this lie wont ruin their world, because its only effect to my world. (Sometimes when its about my love story or family problem that will less people know) others would only know a lie.
Mm..
Kinda, want to make what my life have is normal.
LOL but its far away from normal, its... Unique.
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